there’s today. I got out of bed worrying. Oh, I just hate that. A day when you wake up thinking about EVERYTHING that has to be done for the next six months and wondering if you are capable of doing it and worrying about how you’re going to do it. These days are a real menace to me. They strike at very heart of my confidence level and my confidence level has never been all that high! At least I recognize these days now - so I put on my armor to do battle with myself, keeping a smile on my face and telling myself to "give it up, you can do it!!"
It was a beautiful sunny morning and on my way to work I was dreaming about my vegetable garden and herb garden. I was going over in my head what I was going to can this year. I was also going over all the herbs I could use as
decoration for the wedding reception I’m doing in July. I’m really excited about handling the reception, but I also know that I have to be very prepared. There’s a very fine line between being excited and being worried and I’m trying to stay on the excited side. I’m looking at this just like I try to look at everything else. If you keep yourself organized, have things well thought out and prepared to the best of your ability, even though there will be some uh-oh’s - things will go off "looking" like there were no hitches, but you have to have a back up plan and be prepared to stay calm through it all. I’m making my lists and thinking it through so I’ll be really ready, mentally and physically.
Tonight I did the grocery shopping. I usually shop on the 1st and it’s a little early but my daughter-in-law is coming back through next week from Chicago on her way home to Virginia and I want to have all the shopping finished so I can spend time with her while she’s here. I also needed to pick up some ingredients for lasagna. She likes my lasagna and I aim to please!!
It looks like Friday and Saturday are coming up roses. I’ll have plenty of time to work on some herbal tea blends and plant my lupines and delphiniums. Yes, I’m trying delphiniums again this year. I can never get them to grow but
they are one of my favorite flowers. Larkspur is in the same family and I grew them last year but oh, delphiniums are Larkspurs "kicked up a notch". Besides that, I think both the lupines and delphiniums will be beautiful in my cutting garden behind where the ole cedar tree used to be. I’m trying to have more color back there since the cedar tree is no longer there - so I’m keeping my fingers crossed. Now all I have to do is find a beautiful scented climbing yellow rose.